| Life sucks. But it doesn't... |
[10 Jul 2008|08:46am] |
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So I'm finally on the internet. And I ran out of things to do. I need to watch the lush video so I can win me some lushtastic stuff :) Buuuuuut I need to figure out how to work sound on this computer. So instead I'm posting for the first time in awhile.
I was looking around earlier at some wayyyy earlier posts on here, myspace and, my old journal from high school. I realized how much everything sucks by doing that. People change, even me, and its just shit.
I REALLY wish I was 18 again. That was the best time of my life (so far). I had SO much fun, I took care of myself and I was on the verge of good looking, I had jobs and money with no bills to pay... I had REAL friends, and I didn't worry at all about guys. I dont know what else but I was soooooooooooooooooo happy then.
And now my life is 3/4 shit. I wasted 4 years. I should have a degree. I shouldn't live in a shithole like I do. I used to be soooo social and now I'm a hermit. I can't even buy a pop because I'm so broke. There is not one person in this world I can rely on. And of course I should not have stayed in a relationship with a person who never cared about me as much as I them. I'll never have to be taught that lesson again.
But I guess it could be worse. I do have a place to live where I don't have to listen to verbal abuse ten times a day or be threatened to be kicked out if i dont do this or that. And I have Ariel and Mousie who are my lifesavers. I have a job that I really love, even tho the pay isn't as much as I'd like. I have a car. I have a big bathtub that i can use anytime!!! I do have a lot that I can really be thankful for.
I have to stop relying on people. Or trying to rely on people. Because people suck and don't care about me. I need to care about me like I used to.
To do list:
1. Grow out my hair. Long hair makes me happy. I think its because my grandma had a thing for long hair and always told me to not cut mine. So I won't.
2. Work on my place. Make it look sweet and presentable so I can have visitors!
3. Don't hate. I hate that I hate a peson/things/whatever. Its not like I can change things.
4. Learn to meditate. Or at least yoga. Pilates? Karate? I want to get into something.
5. GO TO CONCERTS. I love concerts and I just don't go to enough. I'll save money and go alone if Have to because people suck and are unreliable.
6. Meet new friends. Ones that don't steal from me/lie to me/ and most importantly, someone who will appreciate me.
7. Work out EVERY DAY. At least a little. My new years resolution was to take Ari for a walk every day I can. once or twice a week isn't cutting it.
8. Take lots of pictures like I used to. And plaster my walls with blown up good ones.
9. Appreciate nature. Have you EVER frolicked in a meadow on a beautiful sunny day? With or without lsd this is awesome.
10. Eat healthy. Cut down on anything artificial and eat raw if possible. One fine day I'd like to have a gluten, red meat, pork, chemical, etc free diet. I'm part way there: I don't eat red meat or pork and I try to buy organic and antibiotic free foods.
11. GO TO THE ENDO!!! I was supposed to have a thyroid ultrasound years ago because I might have thyroid cancer. It could have spread by now. I'm supposed to be on meds. Yea this should be number one.
12. School. Man it sucks I hate mcc. WHY is an orientation so important? Couldnt I have just read a paper on what they had to say there? But I need to be patient and go when I can.
13. Party. Go out and party. Get drunk. Have fun. Yep.
14. READ READ READ. I feel so much smarterer (that's not a typo heh) now that I'm reading more and I don't watch tv (because I have none).
15. Build up my credit.
16. Wax my eyebrows regularly.
17. Go to Cedar Point.
18. think good thoughts.
19. Stop being so nice. Some people don't deserve my being nice to them.
20. Go on vacation. I'm going to drive down south and go to the beach. I wish I could this summer but I can't afford it. Once I have the money, I'm running away for at least a couple weeks just me and my girls (meaning ari and mousie).
21. Say fuck you to people who bring me down. And really do this instead of being a door mat.
22. Add to this list. Because there are so many things I want to do and so many ways for me to be a better person.
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| CARRIE SOULIERRE |
[08 Jun 2008|10:13am] |
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I've called you at least 50 times. Your phone rings and you never answer. I've emailed you and left you voicemails and texts. and now I'm posting on livejournal and myspace.
I NEED MY MONEY ORDER.
I need my electric turned on. This is really shitty of you.
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| Writer's Block: One Day to Live |
[16 Feb 2008|08:51am] |
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I'd tell everyone(that means YOU!) whats really on my mind.
And IF I'm still alive after that.....
Then I'd smoke a bluntzilla filled with afgani dro.
Followed by numerous other illicit drugs.
Then I'd smoke a bluntzilla filled with afgani dro.
After, I'd want a jacuzzi bath and a massage with stuff from LUSH <3 with 774374 candles lit.
.. while smoking a bluntzilla filled with afgani dro. k I'll stop.
I'd make out with someone for a couple hours.. and then have some wild hot sex.
And then I'd go take a nap with Ariel and Mousie.
in reality, I wouldn't want to know if I've only got a day to live :/
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[18 Jan 2008|04:25am] |
Being awake at like 4am kinda sucks.. I started watching an infomercial and now I HAVE TO BUY THIS.
www.trikke.com
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[16 Sep 2007|11:47am] |
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my poor little Mousie is very sick :( I thought I was going to lose her the other day for sure. She spent 2 days in the hospital but is home now. She's still isn't doing the best but I'm hoping she makes a full recovery. I'm so proud of her, she's such a little fighter. Keep her in your thoughts please!!
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| Writer's Block: In The Money |
[28 Jul 2007|07:35am] |
If you won $100 this afternoon, what would you do with it?
I'd spend it all on LUSH products.. mmmmm
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| Puppy for sale |
[15 Jul 2007|10:53pm] |
Someone take me home! I'm worth the money for sure. I'm very very sweet and cuddly!
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[09 Jul 2007|06:00am] |
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yey for my camera charger!!! and yey for my clean(ish) room!!
in a few hours I'm going to pick up Rustifarian's little poodie baby! Pictures of the little ball of fluff to come.
Cedar Point on Thursday. yeehaw.
these are not as good as the last set, but here's some pictures from 10 minutes ago.
( BIG puppieee )
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[03 Jul 2007|07:40am] |
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I used to write in this piece all the time... what happened?
There isn't much to write, I guess. Well anything good at least.. besides about my devilpup.
Ariel is getting biiigggg. She has to have another surgery tho, yuck :[ She'll be 5 months old in a week. She's like 30 pounds already. Awe my baby's growing up!! Things have been pretty shitty lately, but when she's around and not chewing up EVERYTHING, its okay. She has a terribly tiny attention span, she was even bored with fireworks after a few minutes. There should be pictures to accompany this post, but I lost my camera charger. I'm kind of having withdrawals. I'll have to ebay another one. Right after I buy it I'll find my original. Psh.
hmm next week I get to go to the hospital for a thyroid ultrasound that is like years late, according to my new dr. Something is growing on my thyroid, and I'm just hoping its not cancer. It could be- my aunt had it. I don't think it is- er well I hope it isn't at least. I'll find out I guess. I just know I feel like poo constantly now and I'm pretty sick of it.
Well I guess I have a few things to look forward to:
+Picking up Rusty's baby poodle and keeping him for a few days at least.
+Having 2 puppies in the house, for a little while.
+Shopping Birtch Run
+Ozzfest
+Cedar Point
+a pedicure
+a 'Sex Bomb' bath
+sleep
the number 5 hardly works on my laptop.. ugh that sucks.
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[09 Mar 2007|03:44am] |
these are from a few days ago.. she's already bigger and A LOT crazier. She lovvvvess to play.
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[16 Feb 2007|05:10pm] |
Goldens are one of my favorite breeds. And now I have one YEY! I named her Arielle and she was born on Feb. 12. She has a cleft palate, though, so I'm now her new mum. I have to feed her every three hours around the clock.. making her MY baby.
( Arielle )
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[25 Dec 2006|04:34am] |
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I got two dozen roses from my paulie. He can be SUCH a good boy sometimes <3<3<3
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[14 Dec 2006|02:52pm] |
Dearest 'Scene' kids,
Why the hell must you be scene? Its LAME. You're LAME. By 'scene' I mean emo.. hardcore.. sXe,, whatever.. I really can't tell them apart. Hey gals, little girl barettes are for LITTLE GIRLS! Guys do not look even close to good wearing a 10 year old girl's pair of pants. This is a question for scene guys, and I know I've asked before: Do your balls breathe a sigh of relief after you take your pants off? I just wonder.. They do make sizes that actually *fit*. Your hair looks even more hideous than your choice of attire, by the way. You might be able to see how ridiculous you look if you cut off/moved that huge piece of hair that's in your eye(s). Seriously, if someone gave me a really scene-y haircut, I'd cry, then kick their ass, and then I'd go out and buy a wig. Then there's the music... which isn't even music! You're coolness factor does not go up based on how few people know who that {horrible} band is that you're listening to. And you WILL live if you leave your iPod at home. Haha I was reading something a few days ago.. it was HILARIOUS. It was talking about how to dance to scene music. All you have to do is fling your arms around and stomp your feet. Just act like you're having a seizure! How rad! Okay well there's probably a lot more.. but I have this deep desire to go be like the cool kids right now. I'm going to go find a pair of pants that are too small, as well as a polka dotted shirt, and something flannel.... maybe a hankie.. and MOST DEFINATELY a headband. Look how original I am now!!! Its just SO stellar.
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